O Holy Night

Don’t know why…  these songs always make me cry.

Go tell it on the mountain!

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To These Memories I Will Hold

Now comes the day to bid you farewell.

A very fond farewell.

I turned at last to the path that leads home.

Many places I have been and many sorrows I have seen.  But, I don’t regret, nor will I forget all those that took that road with me.

this is my last goodbye


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Tuesday Inspiration 12.2.14

muttering heart:

Thank you.

Originally posted on A million suns ablaze:

Isaiah 54:9-10 (MSG)

For even if the mountains walk away
    and the hills fall to pieces,
My love won’t walk away from you,
    my covenant commitment of peace won’t fall apart.”
    The God who has compassion on you says so.

It’s kind of crazy to think about God’s love. So often you can wonder why God bothers. Either you are discouraged with the state of the world and all the negativity or you are humble enough to look at your own shortcomings and left to wonder and marvel at God’s love. Someone who is perfect. Why would they lower themselves to love us? A partner who can be fickle, who can be unfaithful, who can be hard of heart. What’s in it for God? Right?

I don’t think we can ever understand this. As humans we either have to come to terms with it by accepting it…

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Let This Mind Be In You

I believe there is a time in everyone’s life when that moment of understanding through disconnect comes by looking into a situation from the outside.  What I mean is the forgiveness that we can give to others, because we decide to try to place ourselves in their shoes, to disconnect from who we are, if just for a few moments.  I mean, that we really try to see and understand the circumstances surrounding another’s life at that moment in time.  That which alters a reality created in our own minds.


My view of who my mother was to me as a child.  Disinterest in me.  Blamed for her situation.  Hugs and kisses were nil.  Spoken to like I was a constant pest.  Tossed aside.

There were things I did not know when I was little and kept from me.  Or, maybe I was blocking out situations and not seeing it for what it was?  Come to find out later on that my father abandoned us as children, leaving his wife to fend for herself, with no job, five kids and a baby, me.  Winding up in two different foster homes, boys in one and girls in the other, for almost a year (I thought it was only months, but, my eldest sister corrected me). We were all placed back home with our parents (after they went off to do what they needed to do to stay somewhat sane for the rest of their marriage, for the children’s sake, is what was said).

Can I really blame my mother for never bonding with me as a daughter.  No.  For if I step back and see the situation for what it was and where she was at, how could one really blame her?  Her circumstances created her reality.  Husband gone, left with five kids and a baby, no money coming in, the cries of hunger from her children.  She did what she had to do.  It may not have been very beneficial to me (or her) to lose that bonding that should have taken place.  How could she not look upon me, her daughter, and remember that almost right after she gave birth to me she had to dump me onto someone who could help.  I was a constant reminder of how she failed.  And because of this reminder I was treated with disdain.  But, she did not fail all on her own.  For it was not only her failure, it was the failure of her husband, as well.  And years later, all the failures from within each and every one of us, those who played a part in her life.  It was the part that she was designed to play.   And it is up to me to say, “I forgive you, Mom.”  For there is probably much, much more that I need to be forgiven for, as well.  I can now understand her position in my life and the circumstances surrounding it, for I took that step outside of myself and placed myself in her shoes.  Maybe, this is why God said to not think only of yourself, but, to be mindful of others and their feelings and “do unto others”, loving those as you would want others to love you.

And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind; and thy neighbour as thyself.

Luke 10:27

I think if we, humanity of the world, would treat others with that love that Christ spoke of, then this illusion of man will melt away and the veil will be lifted and we shall see the truth and the truth shall set us free.  Free from all the baggage of days gone by.  Free from all the sorrow.  Free from all that pain.  Free from the oppression caused by others.  Then this earth will be so full of Love that it will cast out all those fears that we hold in our minds.  

Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others. Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus: Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:

Philippians 2:4-6

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muttering heart:

“Pain may have given me a measure of wisdom, but I still would have preferred to stay stupid and idealistic and unscarred.”

Thank you for that pass.

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It’s very hard to describe to someone how grief feels. I remember when I was going through my own persistent hell I was taken to a doctor who flippantly told me, “you’ll be fine soon”. He was, not to put too fine a point on it, a condescending idiot. Doctors are not trained in counselling and frankly he was talking outside his pay grade. Comments like, “time will heal” and “just move on” are seemingly wonderful platitudes that are, frankly, usually useless or even harmful. No one who is not experiencing your grief has the slightest clue what you are going through. If you have ever been crushed by a failed relationship, dealing with saying goodbye, or working through your private hell, you know what I am talking about.

The longer I do this the more I have come to understand that grief is an oft misunderstood and pervading emotion, that is…

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True Spiritual Authority: I will Abide in Him.

 But the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you will abide in Him.

1 John 2:27

I googled ‘spiritual authority’ for most versions of the Bible and my finding was zero. Someone is trying to manipulate others with their own interpretation based on one verse… Hebrews 13:17.  I guess it all depends on who you believe to be ‘ruling over you.’  My Spiritual Authority, has always, and ever will be…  the Holy Spirit.

I will abide in Him and it is He that always deserves our praise, not man.

(So, who is watching over your soul?)

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Holiday Gift?

Parody for Tips and Tricks on how to use instagram as a Christian girl.

I Laughed out Loud!  #Shuddered at the sadness of it all.

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