Now Mars Hill Church is setting up a “relief” fund for those who have been effected by the wild fires in Eastern Washington.

Another Sutton Turner plead for money.  So, how much of the fund will actually make it into the hands of those that are in need?  Send in your hundred-dollar bill…  eighty dollars to the victims…  twenty dollars for processing fees?  Or, maybe, through proper word smithing, it will end up for the new building they have in Spokane?  That’s Eastern Washington.  There is no transparency with what they do with the money they receive.  So, how does one know anything that happens with the gifts given?

I am sure we can all find a more reliable “Relief Fund” to give our money to.  One that will not pull a bait and switch and make excuses for why designated donations did not make it to those harmed by the Washington Fires.  Maybe they will just come up with a list of false names, like those who supposedly bought Mark’s book, and allocate it for the further work of “Jesus” by giving to those on staff who had to take a pay cut for lack of tithes?

Such Chutzpah!  Do you really think anyone with half a brain will fall for this type of shenanigans, once again?  Sadly, yes.

I am awake!

PS.  In the words of Rahm Emanuel, “Never let a good crisis go to waste!” (paraphrase)

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Throwing Stones

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this is for those hit by undeserved boulders

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The boulder was cast to hurt and kill,

the goodness that was left inside me still.

I should have done as St. Stephen did,

Look to God and in Him hid.

Yet, out of disgust and anger, rightly so,

my defense was to pick up and throw.

Throw back the stones that broke away,

from the boulder that came my way.

I am dead inside now, this I know,

for I can not reach anymore ammo,

from the boulder’s weight of long ago.

Awaken child to the dirt,

Fill the earth with all that hurt.

Succumb to what they are asking you;

to empty your mind and your soul,

and accept that boulder as your headstone.

Now, no more stones can be thrown at me,

for into God’s arms I did flee.

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Whatever May Come, Know This…

There is a love so great and true

Given to me and you

That, whatever may come or whatever betide

Know this…

That love conquers all

Those things that seem great

Those things that seem small

So, do not brood over the past

But, get beyond all that aghast

Fill your heart with His love

Then you will rise above.

Above all the things that are fictional in your mind

With love, will not take root and bind

Free yourself, then, from long ago hurts

Fill your heart with His love and let it burst

Pray a little prayer and set it on angels wings

To be carried to those long never seen

“Know this, dear one, whatever may come,

my love for you, will not be undone.”

© mutteringheart

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Of “Dicks” and Men

If my title sounds a bit crude, let me relay that I am only sharing what certain pastors have been heard saying about their own congregants of MHC.

Every time I read something about what has taken place within MHC and the abuse and manipulation that is clearly foisted upon those who attend, it makes me cry.  It makes me cry for knowing how manipulated, controlled, and brainwashed those are from them who still propagate lies and using our Lord, saying that it is “all about Jesus,” when it is clearly all about MHC and its corrupt leaders.  It also makes my spirit so oppressed I want to rise up and speak, or, just dump my thoughts and emotions in the trash, never to visit anything pertaining to MHC again.

Yesterday, there were a couple of stories posted from the “We Love Mars Hill” blog on tumblr, by Phillip C and his wife Michelle.  I know those who attend Mars Hill will consider the stories found on this site not genuine and will pooh-pooh them and think them just having some sort of beef with MH.  Those who think these people are being divisive, or not of Christ, just because they want to release the hurt that has been placed on them by those who claim to be “all about Jesus”.  Those who think Mark Driscoll as one who is so above reproach that they actually idolize him and not Jesus at all.  For if it were Jesus that they truly love, like those of MH say they do, they would know true Love and would be able to discern right from wrong, truth from lies, and fact from fiction.

These are stories of those with PTSD of the worst kind.  These stories are of those who have shown love to others and served them out of a caring heart.  And in return received hate, bitterness, slander, gossip, and shunning.

These stories are of those who know what it means to follow Jesus and His word.  These stories are from those who do love MHC members and that is why they are speaking out as a warning to the corruption therein.

Here is pictured the true attitude of those who think they love Jesus as quoted in Michelle’s article:

“Well I’m forgiven so there is nothing to be done and the fruits of the Spirit are just works based.”  Seriously! these are things that were said by our deacons at MH!

Even if one believes in this manner, it does not justify their actions of cruelty and meanness to those around them, especially those who are supposed to be your “family”.

I can’t even go into the whole “Jesus tricks people” theory of those who are in leadership at this place.  Read their stories, then discern for yourself if it is really the true Jesus that MHC worships and not some man on a stage and his corporation.

Why my title?  Michelle’s experience with a lead pastor:

I asked, “Is calling your sheep a dick a loving way to shepherd people?”  “Absolutely,” responded Pastor J, “in fact it is very accepted in the culture of the elders at Mars Hill.”

Like others have said before; “Unless it has happened to you, it is hard for others to believe it.”


They will know we are Christian by our love?

 “I have yet to see this “love” manifested by any MHC members that I know.  It must be another “secret” they are not allowed to share with all of God’s children.”



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Character Flaws

Now, I know we all have things about us or have done things that others disapprove of, but…

We had a friend who liked to just throw things out of their life with no regard for how it might affect that which is thrown.

When someone can just “throw” away a pet like it was never part of the family, it makes me sick to my stomach and offends my spirit.  Like the time this friend decided he did not want the dog, that his wife loved, anymore.  So, one day when she was out, this man took that dog and dumped him miles away in a field.  When his wife came home she asked him where was their dog.  He replied, “He must have run away.”

To me people who can treat anyone or any animal with such disregard is a mean and cruel person deep down inside.  (And then to tell others of their crime like it was justified?!) They do not carry true love in their heart for the things that truly matter in life.  These are people who only think about themselves and what they always want, never considering the effect on the animals spirit or a persons spirit.

How would you like it if one day someone whom you thought loved you just up and took you out to a field miles away and dumped you, with no provisions to speak of?  How would one think of a person that takes an animal to be “put down” when it has so many years of life left in them; all for convenience sake? How would you consider that person’s heart to be?  When one could have easily taken that animal or child or grown adult (the elderly are abused this way too) to someone else who would gladly have cared for them.

To me, those who can and do such things have such great character flaws that borderline on psychopathy.  They reveal themselves as having no empathy or compassion for the soul and spirit that lies within the beings that God has created.

A righteous man regards the life of his beast, but the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel.

  Proverbs 12:10

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Goodness vs Godliness

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I will not be devoured!

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I have a lot of weird dreams.  Sometimes I remember all of it, sometimes none of it, sometimes when I don’t remember, they become a feeling that I can’t shake and sometimes certain aspects just “stick” till morning.

Well, this is one that stuck till morning.

In this dream I was just going about my business walking down a street when some person (don’t know who it was) came from my left side out of an alley way.  I stopped and looked at her (for it was a woman) knowing she wanted to tell me something.  She said to me, “go look up and compare the words goodness and godliness”.  So I did and here they are:

Goodness:  the quality or state of being good; the nutritious, flavorful, or beneficial part              of something.

Godliness:  the quality or state of being spiritually pure or…

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